I dont have anything really profound to say, just some thoughts i want to share and how i have been feeling latly. and someof them might sound  a little crazy.

  I have been thinking a lot about missions trips and the ones that i have been on specifically. How i have changed as a person because of them. I have probably been on over a dozen mission trips and i dont say this to brag but each one couldnt have been more different than the rest each one a took back something different with me a better nderstanding of who i am who my God is and how beautiful human beings really are and can be.  Thats all i really want to do is just have community with all kinds of different people not just rich white protestant  suberbanites.  So sometimes its hard for me this idea of missions because i have seen it so many time turn into the white anglo saxons on their white horses coming to save the day and americanizing people and making everything better. and then you also have the really strong bible belt christians that use "tracks" to try and save people they dont even know anything about.  I started to think about Christ and what he did and how he interacted with people he just met. i may be wrong about this but didnt Christ take care of physical needs and then people were able to see him for who he really was. Maybe thats what we should do take care of people's basic needs in life and then they will be able to see the love of God. i mean in James does he not say in the 2nd chapter "Suppose a brother or sister is witbout clothes and daily food . if one of you says to him , " Go i wish you well: keep wam and well fed," but does nothing about his physcial needs , what good is it? "

So thats all i have to say for now God is really challenging me  a lot