What can I say? This whole process of trying to raise money has been really exhausting for me. It's also been really interesting to see the dynamics of it as well. More of my friends who are in their 20's, people that have no money are in college , who just got married, have kids on the way have responded loud and strong to my request and my prayer than millionairs.
  It makes me think about growing older and becoming a middle aged adult.

Why, when, and how do people become so jaded in their lives? When did people stop believing that they can make a difference? I thank God for the young idealist who believe that 5 dollars can help change the history of the world because you want to know something IT DOES!

I am always looking towards the "what ifs". I still think to myself, what if this doesn't work out again what if I have tried again to raise this money to go to Mexico and it doesn't work out. What if I get stuck in Pittsburgh again and have nothing to show for it. Maybe I am looking at it all the wrong way. Actually I know I am. I know I have put all my stalk during this journey so far on man and guess what man is lazy will misplace your support letters decide going on a European vacation for the 10^th time this year and decide it is more important than giving to further the kingdom of God.

But the truth is not every one is called to give and man will always let you down. This whole 2-year process for me I should have been realizing that God provides the money 100%. I know this may seem very juvenile idea and thought to most but I have struggled with money my whole life. I have always hated it misused it and always wished I had more and looked down on those that do.

So yeah what if it doesnt work out again i guess God has a plan for me right here in Pittsburgh and i will be fine with that and the money i have raised will go towards wonderful things that are not in vain. These are my thoughts for now! much love and blessing as always. Dios te Benadiga!